Saturday, August 21, 2010
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
But I bet you know that.
It knocks you down, again and again and throws you surprises and curve balls and heartbreaks and happiness over and over again.
And when it does knock you down,
You've got to get back up again.
You've got to be strong and let it go and just keep going.
And when life knocks you down again, you've got to get back up again.
We've got to stop worrying, stop fretting, stop pacing, stop crying, stop all of it.
Forget about it.
Pick yourself up, and keep going, because you never know what surprise life is going to throw you next.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
But anyway, I can't believe it's been A YEAR. It really feels like just yesterday I was trying to figure out what I wanted to name this thing (You should have heard what I came up with haha), how I wanted to decorate it (I think I've changed it 3 times so far). I can remember writing my first blog post, getting all excited, and putting a link on facebook so everyone else could see. :)
To a stranger who happened to stumble across my blog and read all or most of my postings I'm sure it appears that I haven't changed much since I first starting blogging.
But I have.
Since then a lot in my life has changed. I have changed. I always told myself that there was nothing wrong with writing about the good things I was experiencing spiritually, or something I was up to, and that I would never make this a personal blog. (I have a diary for that. You never know what could come back and bite you!) So it's difficult to explain the reasons that I have changed.
Since I started blogging, God has done miracles in my life.
Since I started blogging, my faith has blossomed and grown and been beautiful and full and wonderful.
Since I started blogging, I let go of my faith for a time being and lived the way I wanted to live. (By the way, it didn't work out.)
Since I started blogging, I thought I fell in love.
Since I started blogging, I grew up some more. I saw things I'd never seen before.
Since I started blogging, I met people I know I'll be friends with for years and years to come. People who have changed me for the better.
And I can't wait to live another year. I can't wait for all the surprises, the people, the laughs. I can't wait to continue "growing up", changing, and learning about myself and the world around me.
By the way, I've decided to keep this blog and not get a tumblr. For now anyway. :)
Monday, June 14, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Catherine, McKenna and I decied to take some nice pictures together. (:
And it's only the beginning!
Monday, May 31, 2010
It's just the way I am. Whether I'm playing a sport, or taking a test, or comparing myself to others, I'm constantly wanting to be better. Sometimes it can be a good thing. It helps me strive to be better and better. But- it can also be my downfall.
Sometimes I get too caught up in being the best, and perfect, that I lose myself. I start inwardly insulting myself over and over again, until the point where I'm doing things I shouldn't in order to be the best at whatever I'm doing.
So where does God fit into all of this?
See, that's the thing. He doesn't.
When I get into my "competitive mode", I sort of shove everything else aside. Even God. Especially God. Because I know that when I'm in this really good place with God, I can't do the things I want to do because guilt eats at me constantly.
I know I need to change. And I'm working on it. I have to focus on being happy with the way God made me. My personality, my body, my IQ. I have to be content with it. There's nothing wrong with striving to be better, but when it comes to the point that I'm leaving behind my set of morals, I know it's time to take a step back.
Part of the reason I'm so competitive is because- it's what people expect of me. People expect me to always look great, get good grades, be a "good" person, because that's the reputation I've built for myself. But the thing is, I'm not perfect. I don't always look beautiful, I don't always get an A, and I'm certainly not always the role model person. But no one really is.
I know I need to turn to God, and ask for forgiveness for the things I've been doing.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Before the banquet. (:
Rojean, Katie, and Cammie! Crazy, amazing girls.
Monday, May 3, 2010
I mean, when you really think about it? Being able to talk to your Creator, the one will loves you no matter what, who will never leave you- anytime you want? That's huge. And it's amazing.
A friend and I were together the other day and started talking about prayer, and all the ways that it's important to us. We talked about how comforting it is to know that when you pray about your friend who's hurting that there's actually someone there listening to You. We talked about how astounding it is that we can talk to Jesus, just like we talk to our best friend. We talked about how undeserving we are, that he actually wants to hear what we have to say. We talked about how loved we feel, when we know that when we are hurting or have a problem- He cares.
But you know what we didn't talk about?
We didn't talk about listening to God.
Which is huge.
How are we supposed to know God's will for our lives, if we don't listen to what He has to say? Think about it. He already knows what's going to happen to us in advance if we choose to do what He asks- or if we choose to do what we want.
And you know what?
God's way is best. Always.
Even if His will for you makes absolutely no sense at all. Maybe at the moment you're confused and hurting and you think that this situation has to be done THIS WAY, or no way at all. Because, that's the only way it's going to work, right?
He knows best. And He actually wants the best for YOU.
So next time you sit down to pray, make sure you set aside some time to listen. Maybe God's got something to say too.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
McKenna, you are the definition of blessing.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
McKenna, Nathan, and I. (:
Cammie, Vincente, me, and McKenna!
Uhh.. dont ask about the guy behind us. haha
Cammie and Katie:)
McKenna, Catherine, and I at the hotel! Haha.. ohh the faces of people in the background. ;)
At the Riverwalk! We had tonss of fun there. (:
The trip was pretty darn fun. There was so much laughter, and jokes, and roller coasters!! Best weekend I've had in a long time.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
I am thankful that I know Jesus. That I love Him. That I want to grow in Him, and learn more about Him, and fall in love with Him. I know I don't deserve his grace, or love, or forgiveness, and I am so thankful for all that He does for me. Especially the things I don't even know about!
I am thankful for my friends. I'm not sure if I blogged about this in the summer or not- but all summer I prayed that I would meet wonderful Christian friends in Choir that would uplift me and I would grow close to- and man did God provide! I couldn't ask for better friends. (Ahem.. McKenna, Catherine, etc) :)
I am thankful for my family. My sister and I are best, best friends. (She's a year older than me) We don't just share clothes and jewelry- we share a bond that no one can break. And of course, my parents. I can't ever be thankful enough that I'm growing up in a Christian home where my parents are still in love with each other- 18 years into a marriage. That takes work and dedication and I am so thankful.
I am thankful for the way God made me. I don't want this to sound vain, let me explain. Throughout my short, fifteen year life I have struggled with accepting not just the way God made my personality, but my body, like any other girl. But over time I've slowly become fine with who I am. My body type. Me. Weird as it might sound, some days it's really hard being thankful for who you are. And today, I am.
I am thankful that I have the chance, every day, to witness to everyone around me. I want not only to talk about Jesus and spread the truth, but I pray that people will see Jesus in me just through my actions. I hope that when people see me, they dont really see me, but Jesus!
So, yes, I'm thankful. For the beautiful weather today. For everything about my life. I'm so, so blessed and I cannot thank God enough for giving me everything that He has! I cannot wait to see what's ahead in my life.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Friday, April 2, 2010
So it's not the best picture of me, but this another birthday gift! It's going to my dress for Choir Banquet.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Ifrah and I! :)
We went iceskating:) And, amazingly, I only fell down three times! She fell down twice. This is tennn times better than the last time I went ice skating... I can't count how many times I found my face covered in ice!
Yeah, we get pretty goofy. :D
Then we went to one of my absolute favorite restaurants!
Ifrah is one of those friends I won't ever forget to thank God for. I'm so, SO grateful that He brought such a wonderful person into my life! And it was really nice seeing her again, after almost a year. :)
Sunday, March 14, 2010
He told us to stop living on that list, to stop focusing on what we should and should not do. He said just to love Jesus. That we should just give every part of ourself over to Him. To pour our heart and soul into a passionate relationship with Him, and let Him guide us through everything we say and do. When we do that, we don't need to be so focused on doing this and doing that because we won't want to do those things, and we will want to serve Him and follow His will when we're, well, in love with Him.
Of course- there are still some things I want to do that are wrong. But I'm human and not perfect, and I'm going to be working on my relationship with my Heavenly Father for the rest of my life.
Anyway, I just wanted to share that with all of you because it has definitely helped me in my day-to-day life, and I hope it helps yours:)
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Some people choose not to be.
Some people spend all their time dressing like others, talking like others, and acting like others.
And then what?
And then they've lost themself. They've lost that special thing that makes them them.
Then they're unhappy.
Because they're never good enough.
Never like that other person.
But what if...
What if you stopped wearing that because other people wear it?
What if you started wearing what you want to wear?
What if you stopped talking like that because your best friend talks like that?
What if you started talking in a way thats pleasing to Jesus Christ?
What if you stopped doing that because everyone else is doing that?
What if you started doing something else? Something you want to do. Something good.
What if you started being different?
Started being yourself.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Today was kinda crazy and it was going downhill fast.
But I walked into my 7th period class- and what was waiting for me?
A wonderful letter from one of my best friends who tracked down my class, found out where my seat was, and left it for me before I got there.
And I felt so much better.
I dare you to say something nice to someone tomorrow.
Maybe they're having a bad day and maybe they're not, but either way-
You made someone smile.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
A few of the girls in my host home. We've got from left to right Torrey, Rachel, me, Sarah, and another Sarah! These girls are hilarious.
Sarah and I became best friends in the 2nd grade. Seven years later and we still are!
The guy in the middle was our speaker- Tim Bach. (If his name sounds familiar- I blogged about him in the summer when he was our speaker for camp) Love this guy!
My hair fell into my face at the last second :( but I thought this picture was so cute! It's of Torrey, Sarah, and I on the last day, wearing our new Freedom Weekend shirts!
Definitely a weekend I won't be forgetting any time soon. :)
Sunday, February 14, 2010
I absolutely love the shirt design! It says: I read Susie mag. (I just realized my hair is covering up the I read)
Anyways, that package totally made my day:).